sugar free

i have become such a weeper. it's fantastic. i can remember watching oprah with sam (totally by accident, as we were flipping through channels one day), and being morbidly intrigued by how easy it was to get her going. show oprah a clip of some birds flying around set to enya, and the waterworks begin (or so it seemed when i was eleven). fast forward to twenty minutes ago, when i finished reading "the time traveler's wife,"* and ended up bawling like a five-year-old because the ending was so terribly sad. thank you, hormones.

i've stopped eating sugar again. as of yesterday, i will consume no processed sugar (save for the chocolate almond milk i bought last week, which is flavored with cane juice, and which would be a terrible waste to get rid of). yesterday, at the store, i was practically itching to throw a piece of caramel or chocolate or peach gummy into my mouth, and i'm proud to say that i did not. a chocolate store is the absolute worst place to work after you've sworn off candy. temptation abounds. i had to make chocolate covered marachino cherries, and was required to taste a cherry pre-chocolating to make sure the batch wasn't rancid, and so i chewed it up and spit it out, as swallowing the cherry would mean i'd eaten sugary goodness. it has now been thirty hours since i decided to stop the sugar IV, so we'll see how long this continues. i've learned that after quitting sugar cold turkey, it takes about two weeks to stop wanting to cram every bit of it into your mouth, but after that, it gets much better. i just have to hold out at the chocolate factory for a week and a half. we shall see.



*i would like to apologize for turning this blog into a summer reading list. i'm only working nine and a half hours this week and i need something to do. also, reading is cool.