goddammit

i am currently having the kind of day that makes me want to punch everything i come in contact with. it's not that anything majorly shitty happened. it's a bunch of terrible, stupid little things that have built on each other to make me really irritated. of all the little annoyances that occurred today, the one that makes me the most upset is the fact that i woke up this morning with another sty, in the other eye. this one is much worse and hurts and gave no warning before it attacked. i'm not about to go back to ashe a third time in two and half weeks, especially because i'm now the proud owner of both a bottle and a tube of various antibiotic solutions for eyes, and antibiotics are pretty much all they can do for styes anyway. the reason this new raging sty issue is bothering me to the max (besides, of course, the fact that it's incredibly unpleasant) is that i just got finished doing something awful to my body for five months to stop feeling like a total disgusting beast all the time. and now, my face has found yet another way of ensuring that i won't like the way i look. if i can't get a real pimple anymore, i'll get something that looks exactly like one - in my eye. fuck. that's so irritating.

also, today was going to be the day when i started wearing my contacts again and stopped having to live in a blurry, fuzzy world of craze. apparently not.