:(

the hamster died on thursday. i'd taken her to the vet because she wasn't eating or drinking and her eyes were crusted shut. i was at the office for an hour, and in that time, the prognosis went from "let's clean her up and give her antibiotics" to "do you want us to euthanize her?" it was super bizarre. i know it sounds insane and little over the top to formulate conspiracy theories when your hamster dies, but the circumstances were really very strange. about a half hour after i told the vet that no, i didn't want to kill my animal, she came back with a little corpse, telling me it had died of fright while they were cleaning it. personally, i think they fucked up somehow with the medication. whatever the cause, i still had to pay them $53 for killing my adorable pet. it was awful.

today is yom kippur, and while i'm absolutely too lazy to attend temple, i like fasting. it's super difficult for me because i'm the kind of girl who will force handfuls of disgusting candy corn into my face simply because it's available and i'm bored. so, not eating for an entire day is, for me, always the sort of soul cleansing adventure it's supposed to be on yom kippur. normal people can go from sunrise to sunset without foods and be ok. it's now 11:41 AM and i'm already starving.